Rubber Ring Panic Attack

Posted by VERITAS
… that occurred while cleaning the blender after making an almond milk (mixing almonds with purified water) plus vegan nutritional powder smoothie, the attack being triggered by a combination of:
(1) the refusal of the the circular plastic fitting on which the cutting blade is mounted to fit snugly with the part above it that comprises the sides of the glass pitcher part, this although it had fit snugly prior to washing;
(2) a feeling of a growing shortage of time before I would have to leave in order to make a yoga Meetup in time.

… only to spot, on the counter, the rubber ring that fits around an indentation in the circular plastic fitting on which the cutting blade is mounted, the ring’s reason for being there that I had removed it from the fitting in order to wash it separately, then placed it provisionally on the counter for drying before refitting around the circular indentation …

Conclusion:
At base was not understanding the behavior of something — which, when I was a child, could very well, I suspect, have been my own body when my father was abusing me — over which I had previously been confidently able to exercise control, and with a feeling of the time during which I might be able to achieve such understanding rapidly running out …